8 Years

Long after I have given up, my heart still searches for you without my permission…

Exactly 8 years ago this day, August 22, I died. It was that day when she left me without saying anything except the words “Let me go. You deserve someone better…” through a text message. Seven words that ended up our almost 7-year relationship.

She was my world. She was my everything. I want to believe I gave her my heart and soul. But this day 8 years ago, she decided not to be a part of my world any longer… And from that time on I have been alive but dead inside. I have been alive but dead inside for 8 years.

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EIGHT years is a long time. I felt bad because that breakup up 8 years ago has created a space in my soul which needs a packing at the most basic. All these time, I tried various ways to forget her. But I guess, some love never dies. Maybe, the extent just gets abridged with time. But even so, 8 years seem to not have managed to revive my heart. Maybe another 8 years?

But then again, 8 years are still too less if I equate it to the number of years I may still have to spend. I am not promising anything but I hope that someday, my heart would feel alive once again… no matter how long it will take for that time to come.

It takes a strong heart to love, but it takes a stronger heart to continue to love after it’s been hurt.

6 comments

I know exactly how you feel. I went through the same exact thing 15 years ago. The love of my life walked away without a word. No explanation. No closure. I can tell you this: It does get easier although it takes time. I found someone else 13 years ago and got married. I didn’t think I could fall in love again. I didn’t believe I could love someone else in the same way or more, but I did and I do. Hang in there.

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Sakit sa heart kuya 💔

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Argh… don’t be too hard on yourself na besh. Ang tagal na sobra ng 8-years. Palayain mo na yung puso mo. 😥

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Whoa ! ! You’re still pining 8 years after the break-up ? Where is she now ? Already married ? You’re a rare man. Usually,it’s a girl’s heart that gets broken, and can stay broken for years and years .

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